Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I don’t have to be perfect to make progress

I was thinking about it this morning. How I allowed "perfection" to keep me a prisoner for so long. Perfection! There is no such things as perfect. But it’s something that has been the demise of so many weight loss attempts for me. How many times have I started a weight loss plan only to fall short of sticking to the plan "perfectly" and then allow that to be the reason to throw the whole program out the window. Why do I do this??? Life is full of choices, some good and some bad. It is foolish of me to think that I can go all my life and never make a bad food choice, yet it is exactly what I do. I need to embrace the fact that I am perfectly imperfect, and that is okay. I can be less than perfect and I can still become a healthy person even if I don’t always choose the most healthy choice. I can make a mistake and not throw it all away. Aiming for perfection is okay, but falling short can no longer be used as an excuse to abandon my weight loss program. It makes no sense to undo all the hard work for one bad choice or bad food day. I really need to embrace the mantra of Progress Not Perfection.

Today I may strive for perfection, but if I fall short, it’s okay. Another meal is coming where I get a chance to do better. Progress, NOT Perfection is something I have been saying for years. But it’s time I stop giving lip service and put those words into action.

Until next time, be well.
Linda

Thursday, July 22, 2010

I won a Medifast Giveaway!

Wow! I can't believe it's been so long since I have updated my journal. Oh well, today is a new day and I have some very exciting news. I was one of the lucky winners to receive a Free Month of Medifast that was so graciously hosted by Lyn who has a fabulous blog named Escape from Obesity. You can read all about it here:

http://escapefromobesity.blogspot.com/2010/07/month-of-medifast-who-won.html

I was really wanting to try Medifast before this giveaway happened, but finances have been very tight and I was really concerned about putting that much money out and finding that program might not be a good fit for me. So many deserving folks had already entered the giveway by the time I decided to leave a comment that I almost didn't even try. I decided that I was going to leave a comment anyway and here is what I wrote.

My name is Linda. I am 52 year old. I am a loving first time grandparent and a mom of two grown kids. I have been reading your blog for quite some time now. I can't begin to express how much your words inspire me each and every day. I wake up each day, and truly look forward to reading about your journey, wishing I could follow in your footsteps. My story is like most, I am not so unique when it comes to weight loss struggles. I have never been able to beat this disease. One failed attempt after another, but I have never, ever given up. My highest weight was 41l pounds. I presently weigh 392.8. I am watching my life slip away day by day. Everything that is near and dear to me is in jeopardy. My job is presently accommodating me to work from home, but I am so worried that I will not be able to go back to work in 4 months because nothing has changed. Out of desperation, I am going thru the preop steps to have lapband surgery. I don't want to go to this extreme, but I feel so very desperate to save my life. At the same time I am petrified to have the surgery and die on the table. But if I keep going like this, I will die too. I just really need help and need to do something very different and drastic to save my life. I just can't go on like this. Life is passing me by and if I continue on this road I am on, well, my life will be cut very short. I just had my first grandchild last August. She is the most precious baby. I want to be able to take her to the park, to be here to watch her grow up and be part of her life. My mother died in 1993 from a stroke related to her morbid obesity. My biggest fear is that if I don't get this weight off now, I too will not be here much longer. I have successfully lost weight various times. In 1998 I lost over 100 pounds following a weight loss program that removed sugar and white flour from my diet. I did really well and lost 111 pounds in about 10 months. When I relapsed back into the sugar/carbs, I put the weight back on plus some. I can't believe so much time has passed since then. Diet after diet, trying so hard to get my life back to no avail. I now understand that this has to be a lifestyle change in order for me to see permanent change. I have watched you really get your life back because of all the hard work you have done over the years. But I also know that when you started on the Medifast program, it gave you what you needed at the time, a tool to take that next step into your journey. It gave you structure around your food. Lynn, that is what I need, structure around my food. I need to be able to just open a packet, eat it and move on. No mess, no fuss. I can't be thinking about what am I going to eat next, or have too much variety right now. I need to keep things simple. I have been praying for a way to financially be able to afford to do Medifast. If you choose me, I promise that I will give everything that I have and stick with it the whole time. I want to save my life. I have a wonderful husband who has stuck by me all these years. If it were not for him, well I just don't know. I am tired of not being an active participant in my own life. I don't want to spend the rest of my life stuck in a wheelchair. I want to feel what it feels like to walk without pain again. I want to travel, and help others. I want to stop talking about it and do it. Food needs to not have so much importance in my life, and with Medifast, I think it would be my ticket out of this hell I live in, day in and day out. I need to start from ground zero. I do believe that this program can help me change my life. The Medifast program will give me the tools and opportunity to get my life back. If you choose me I will not let you down. I will work hard and follow the program to the letter. I know that there is no such thing as perfection. But it’s not about want anymore, I need to do this. I am willing to give this program 110percent so I can get my life back. It’s been a long time since I have had these feelings of hope.

Kind Regards,
Linda

I can't believe I won! I am so excited to be able to have this opportunity to jumpstart my weight loss program. I plan to blog about my experience each day once I start the Medifast program.

Today's weight 384.2

Stayed tuned and be well.
Linda

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Thought for the day...

No matter how much it hurts, no matter what the pain is inside, FOOD IS NOT THE ANSWER!!

Friday, August 7, 2009

Thought for the day....

It’s the effort that I make today that matters!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Drinking Water

Just goes to why we should do all things in moderation. Without balance, look out!

Why Drinking Too Much Water Is Dangerous By:
Dr. Ben Kim on March 31, 2009 Health Warnings
Updated on March 31, 2009

On January 12, 2007, a 28-year old Californian wife and mother of three children died from drinking too much water. Her body was found in her home shortly after she took part in a water-drinking contest that was sponsored by a local radio show. Entitled "Hold Your Wee For A Wii," the contest promoters promised a free Wii video game machine to the contestant who drank the most water without urinating.
It is estimated that the woman who died drank approximately 2 gallons of water during the contest. When she and other contestants complained of discomfort and showed visible signs of distress, they were laughed at by the promoters and even heckled.
This tragic news story highlights the importance of understanding why drinking too much water can be dangerous to your health.
Whenever you disregard your sense of thirst and strive to ingest several glasses of water a day just because you have been told that doing so is good for your health, you actually put unnecessary strain on your body in two major ways:
1.Ingesting more water than you need can increase your total blood volume. And since your blood volume exists within a closed system - your blood circulatory system - needlessly increasing your blood volume on a regular basis puts unnecessary burden on your heart and blood vessels.
2.Your kidneys must work overtime to filter excess water out of your blood circulatory system. Your kidneys are not the equivalent of a pair of plumbing pipes whereby the more water you flush through your kidneys, the cleaner they become; rather, the filtration system that exists in your kidneys is composed in part by a series of specialized capillary beds called glomeruli. Your glomeruli can get damaged by unnecessary wear and tear over time, and drowning your system with large amounts of water is one of many potential causes of said damage.
Putting unnecessary burden on your cardiovascular system and your kidneys by ingesting unnecessary water is a subtle process. For the average person, it is virtually impossible to know that this burden exists, as there are usually no obvious symptoms on a moment-to-moment basis. But make no mistake about it: this burden is real and can hurt your health over the long term.
Forcing your body to accept a large amount of water within a short period of time - say, an hour or two - as several contestants did during the "Hold Your Wee for a Wii" contest can be fatally dangerous to your health. Here's why:
If you force large amounts of water into your system over a short period of time, your kidneys will struggle to eliminate enough water from your system to keep the overall amount at a safe level.
As your blood circulatory system becomes diluted with excess water, the concentration of electrolytes in your blood will drop relative to the concentration of electrolytes in your cells. In an effort to maintain an equal balance of electrolytes between your blood and your cells, water will seep into your cells from your blood, causing your cells to swell.
If this swelling occurs in your brain, the bones that make up your skull hardly budge. The result is an increase in intracranial pressure i.e. your brain gets squeezed. Depending on how much water your drink in a short period of time, you could experience a wide variety of symptoms, ranging from a mild headache to impaired breathing. And as occurred recently in the tragic water-drinking contest, it is quite possible to die if you drink enough water in a short enough period of time.
This information is particularly important for parents to pass on to their children. Foolish water-drinking contests are not uncommon among high school and university students, especially while playing cards.
So how much water should you drink to best support your health?
The answer to this question depends on your unique circumstances, including your diet, exercise habits, and environment.
If you eat plenty of foods that are naturally rich in water, such as vegetables, fruits, and cooked legumes and whole grains, you may not need to drink very much water at all. If you do not use much or any salt and other seasonings, your need for drinking water goes down even further.
Conversely, if you do not eat a lot of plant foods and/or you add substantial salt and spices to your meals, you may need to drink several glasses of water every day.
Regardless of what your diet looks like, if you sweat on a regular basis because of exercise or a warm climate, you will need to supply your body with more water (through food and/or liquids) than someone who does not sweat regularly.
Ultimately, the best guidance I can provide on this issue is to follow your sense of thirst. Some people believe that thirst is not a reliable indicator of how much water you need, since many people suffer with symptoms related to dehydration and don't seem to feel a need to drink water on a regular basis. My experience has been that most people who are chronically dehydrated have learned to ignore a parched mouth. If you ask such people if they are thirsty and would like a piece of fruit or a glass of water, they will almost always realize that they are indeed thirsty.
Some people suggest observing the color of your urine as a way of looking out for dehydration. The idea is that clear urine indicates that you are well hydrated, while yellow urine indicates that you need more water in your system. While this advice is somewhat useful, it is important to remember that some chemicals (like synthetic vitamins) and heavily pigmented foods (like red beets) can add substantial color to your urine. Thumbs down for synthetic vitamins, and thumbs up for red beets and other richly colored vegetables and fruits.
The main idea that I wish to share through this article is to beware of mindlessly drinking several glasses of water per day without considering your diet, exercise habits, climate, and sense of thirst. And when you do find yourself in need of water, remember that you can get it from liquids and/or whole foods.

Tracking Tools

I recently found a great site sparkpeople.com. I have decided to use this site to track the food I eat. Honesty is the best policy, afterall, the only person I am cheating is myself. Another good reason to track my meals is it keeps it real for me. If I have a successful week, I can easily go back and track what I did to make the weight go down. If I gain, then I also have a way of tracking and eliminating the food culprits.

Losing weight takes a lot of hard work. For me, this weight loss journey is a full time job. It requires rigorous honesty, planning, preparing, and dedication. Each day I need to keep motivating myself to eat properly. It does not come natural to me. But I am not a quitter and I want to become healthy and be able to walk without pain again.

There is no softer. gentler, easier way to do lose the weight. If there was I would have found it by now. But I trust that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. That one day at a time, I can and will succeed. The only way I won't succeed is if I give up. That is something that I refuse to do.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Detours

Okay, I did it again. I did some sightseeing again and took a major detour from my food plan. Of course this off ramp had me lost for 4 days going in circles which cost me a 6 pound gain. Today I weighed in at 385! Yuck! It sure does go on faster then it comes off. This will teach me to read the signs better! These types of detours are dangerous for me. However, I am going to try to gleam some knowledge from it instead of beating myself up over it.

I checked my BMR today. The calculator says that in order for me to stay the same, I would need to eat about 2,384 calories a day to maintain my weight. We all know that it takes a deficit of about 3,500 calories to lose one measly pound of body fat. I am going to aim between 1500-1800 calories a day. If I feel less less hungry and might tell less detours.

For me, I need to count calories. Maybe one day I will be able to just eat by my satiety level but for today that mechanism is broke in me. Therefore, I believe I will always have to track my food intake. I still think that tracking my food is a small price to pay to live inside a normal size body. Thank God I am back on the highway of life.